I begin my writing with a question that i have on my mind right now, "When everything in your life push you to always keep busy all the times, Will you still remember to spend one hour or even less than one hour to just pray, talk and say thank to God?" ..Keep it on your mind and answer it.
When i moved to other city as today, I feel that my heart is just empty. It is not because of i do not have friends or i live in a very quiet place but it's about my relationship with my greatest Father. I feel my heart is empty as i am like losing a spirit to always come to Him whenever it is. When i arrived here in my new place at the very first time, it felt so hard. I was like getting so many burdens and i just felt i can't keep IT on. Every single day, I just have Him to share what i feel, what i want and what my problems are. I try to make many notes everyday about what i felt at that times. I talked to Him every single day and asked many questions. And He answered all my question I asked to Him so i can keep it on until today. But, after He answered all of my questions, i am like a lost daughter. I never come to Him again, never talked to Him like a father and daughter, and never spend time though it is only 5 minutes for Him. I am like ignoring him for doing that. He never got angry because of that as he still gives me life and beautiful days. I am like a selfish girl. I always do my routine activities and everything that keeps me busy all the times until i forget that i have to spend time for Him. He gave me 24 hours a day, 7 days a week and 30 days in a month but what i did? I never spend time even 1 hour or less than that to just sit down, stay calm and try to speak to Him. What the hell i did? Until the day come that He is greeting me with his way. I do realize this is what he can do though the way He greets me is so hard to be accepted. He gave me a problem that i never expect to have. See now, His greeting works..!!
Finally, I come to Him to get his help. What a shame!! I am like shameless. He is like a great father when i start to forget Him, he remind me that he is still there for me. I come to Him when i really feel that i can not handle something by myself. I never want to be like this and once again, He is just amazing. Yeah, sometimes, the way he reminds us of Him is unacceptable but He did that because we are just like a stubborn people. For me, the problems he already gave to me make me realize that ignoring Him is not what I should do. By this problems He reminds me that i don't have to be so selfish in passing through this life as i know that i can not walk by myself without his hand to always hold me. Being with Him is actually the best thing i had but sometimes, i forgot it all as many things turn my attention. When i feel that i am okay and there are no problems i face, i am like feeling high as i never come to Him to say thanks..Just saying Thanks!!!!!
I never do that and i regret for what i did.
One hour is not a long time to talk to him as I still have 23 hours more but what did i do again? I am like a stingy daughter as i never give Him my time even only 1 hour from my 24 hour a day. I am just like running and running to catch the times as i ever feel that i lack of times to do my daily activities. But although i keep myself busy,I feel empty..I feel that i walk in a wrong path..!!As I know that I didn't come to His house for more than 2 months and what did i do? I never try to visit Him. again, I am like a lazy cat.. What are the problems? I come to the house that i should not enter but i always enter it as there are no difficulties to enter that house. Just walk straight and the door is opened. So, what did He do to me? He still loves me as he still stands by my side. He gives me new day everyday. And again, what did I do? I am ignoring Him and become a selfish daughter.
Then again and again when i have to face a very big problem in my life nowadays, I come to Him and finally, I starts to remember that I need him to help me. I just sit down, and stay calm. I make a cross then my mouth is like uncontrolled to say many things. I am crying, I am mumbling, I can't stop talking to Him and I can not stop saying "SORRY"..!! I feel so guilty..but what did he do when He knows me like this? He is like coming up and showing to me that i should not ignoring Him. I can work, i can do many things in my daily life but i know He just wants me to always remember Him. He is just like a father. He wants me to give him attention and i am a bad daughter. He gave me many things in my life without asking things in return but what did i do? I am ignoring Him...!!
I am so sorry, my great father. I do realize that i have to always walk straightly..!!
"This is only the story between me and Him, If you read it until this part thanks and i write it as i just want to share and inspire people with my story. :)"
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