Oww..Did you ever be a secret admirer??

..One question to begin my writing as usual...: "Did you ever fall in love?".. Well, Love is everywhere we could find it wherever we are but the best thing is that when we got one special person to be loved. Falling in Love... That phrase is a common phrase to say when we feel something special to somebody...He/She can increase our heartbeat when meeting each other..Everything about her/him is just so beautiful.. Is it falling in love? he he...

I did not have many experiences in it (ha ha..)..But here, i do not want to write about being falling in love or just Love..I wanna write about something that often happens to us. It is about when we love or fall in love with someone but the one we love do not realize that we fall in love with her/him and He/She just ignores us. Unfortunately, we do not brave enough to confess our feeling to the one we love.. Well, have you ever experienced that? So, I can say that we just become a "secret admirer".

Becoming secret admirer is an easy thing to do (he he). Yeah, i admit that i ever experienced it. When you become a secret admirer, we will do some crazy things. Okay, as i said i ever experienced it i will tell you what kind of madness that attacked me at that time. ha ha..I admired someone for more than 6 years. I never felt that he did love me too so i just keep what i feel to him. I did so many crazy things. I wrote everything about him in my diary book (what he did, how he look, when we met, etc), i approached him and just asked many silly questions, tried to attract his attention by making some stupid things, etc. At that time, i was just happy when we could talk, did jokes, and did some school tasks together. I was in my junior high school in 2nd grade at that time. One day, he gave me a motorcycle picture that he made. I kept that picture in my purse until we graduated. But unlucky me..i was robbed and i lost my purse :(..it was crazy that i still kept that picture and also made so many notes about him. But well, it is not wrong i can say as we have rights to love or fall in love though it is only an imagination love (ha ha ha)...

One of the reasons of being a secret admirer is there is no bravery to confess what we feel to someone. Because of that, we only keep that feeling in the deepest of our heart and locked it. You know, the love we feel when we become a secret admirer will last long. It sounds strange but i proved it. How about you guys? Does the feeling you feel last long? See my experience, i can keep my feeling for him for more than 6 years until i say to him that i ever love him. It lasts long and sometimes, it is so hard to be deleted. Is it true love? ha ha ha..I never know the answer for that question. I bet it is not as we can not realize that love. In Indonesia, we can say "Cinta Bertepuk Sebelah Tangan"..hi hi..

Just be happy even we only become a secret admirer. It sounds useless to be secret admirer as we do not get anything from that even the love we want. But well, nobody is not the same, we got our own choice.Becoming a secret admirer is not a problem or even a wrong thing to do.. It's only the way we choose to Love someone.. Though the end of becoming a secret admirer is sometimes so bitter as yay! we will have this kind of experience to see the one we love find his/her own love.. But the feeling we feel when we are becoming a secret admirer will not fade.!!

I will give a beautiful song from Mocca (Indonesian band) to the all  secret admirers.

Okay guys, sorry if my writing is a bit messed up ..i write it late night and just got the inspiration..But at least, we have to keep writing..keep writing and keep reading :D..